I Know Everything.

Its already July 11, and I haven't accomplished any of the goals I made for myself in my last post.

Probably because they weren't very important.

I didn't sign up for summer classes.

I didn't finish any books, I started a few though.

I made a friendship bracelet, and started a few, but now they're gathering dust in my drawer.

I did learn a couple of songs on acoustic.

It makes me feel good to know that I can accomplish something moderately artistic.

What else do I have to my name anyways?

I job hunted... to no avail.

I didn't want to work at Hollister anyways.

The job at Hot Topic I wanted would have been all about image, just like hollister was.

Except in a different direction.

I've been thoroughly enjoying the time i've been spending with my family.

I have finally begun to bond with my dad, and its amazing.

Its just a shame its occurring so late.

Watching the World Cup has been fulfilling in more ways than one.

(Here come shallow remarks)

I get to spend time with my family.

I get to oogle sweaty men running around.

Hoorah for male bravado!

My mom got me thinking yesterday though, she told me

"You're young. This is the time for you to have fun."

Okay, so background, I've been kind of... avoiding like 12 of my friends, just ....because.

I am perfectly content hanging out with my family.

I have so much fun with them.

I just hate going to hang with my friends, and feeling like i'm missing time with my family.

This is how it breaks down-

My college friends: I live with them. What's the rush in seeing them? I understand the importance other people place in "keeping in touch". I just want to be able to move back to school and be just as tight as we were. I care about them, its just.. I don't really feel the need to see them. So of course, i've been making empty promises to go hang out. I need to act on them. One-sided friendships aren't fair.

The "Family"- aka the posse I began to hang out with the last 2 months of college.

For some reason, the time apart has made me realize that i'm only really tight with two of the people in the fam. I wonder how things will be in the fall. I'll keep my distance, make myself scarce. I'll always be tight with K. P is my girl and always will be.

I don't know about A and J though.

I know what its like to be the odd one out.

I want to surround myself with people that appreciate me.

The Asian Trio.

Always and Forever.

These girls are actual family.

Lately, things have been kind of strained, but in the most asian trio way possible.

I've been dropping the ball.

Phones work both ways, and I have lately put up no effort to use mine.

E is moving soon.

Too soon.

I've hung out with her... twice this summer.

Fail.

No regrets... right?

She's been doing her own thing. Seeing her people. As she should, her time is limited.

I've been pretty good about J, I talk to her on a daily basis.

Its a healthy relationship.

Goodnight for now.

I have to wake up early for mass tomorrow.

Hopefully 7am mass will bring me clarity. Its a lot quieter than the usual 9am.