Chasing Pavements.

New Goal:

Cut High Fructose Corn Syrup out of my diet.

This is going to be a lot harder than necessary.

They put it in everything.

Learning Chemistry has urged me to make this decision.

Knowledge is power.

Sleep Alone

Cluttered Room, Cluttered Mind.

I'm just tired.

So much to do.

I have the time, I just don't have the willpower anymore.

It feels like everything in my life is a chore.

Clean your room.

Do your homework.

Talk to an old friend.

Breathe.

Lather, Rinse and Repeat.

Beautiful Nightmare.

Lately i've been having these terrible realistic dreams.

and by Terrible, I mean that they aren't good.

These dreams influence my interactions with the people around me.

Unnecessary hostility.

I don't mean for it to happen...It was just because of this dream I had.

If night-dreams are my escape from reality, then I wish they would be less realistic.

American Dreams.

Does finding freedom mean leaving behind the things

you have come to love the most?

Freedom.

"And then, something happened. I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom."

-Fight Club

Hotter than Wasabi.

Blogging is kind of like that shiny new toy you get when you're little.

Its exciting for a week and you play with it constantly.

Then you throw it in the corner and ignore it.

You only play with it after that because you feel obligated to.

Not really in the mood to write anymore.

Maybe that will change.

Misplaced Words.

Today is my first day of break!

How exciting.

Except not really.

The weather here is dreadful.

I woke up excited from a good night's sleep in my own bed to look outside into a gray, dreary day.

No morning run.

Boo.

I made up for it by working out in my basement though.

And then it was like that was all cancelled out because I accidentally ate a slice.. or two of chocolate cake from WholeFoods.

I have no self control.

Its just like all those times I eat oranges, even though I'm allergic.

I shouldn't complain when my fingers get itchy, fat and pink like sausages.

I guess i'm going to have to work out again tonight.

But that's okay. It gives me something to do.

I wonder why colleges plan their spring breaks to be at such an obscure time.

It is nowhere near Easter..

Not complaining though.

I needed to get off my campus.

Nacho looks like Chewbacca right now.

Someone needs a good groom.

Not this guy though.

Gretchen Meet World.

"Oh don't worry I'm not homeless again."

Wise words from a wise man.

Anyways, today I finally realized that my 12 previous years in Catholic school were not wasted.

It left me with that desire to always be...."nice".

I always want to please people.

I avoid conflict at all costs.

I hate disappointing people.

Lying makes me feel terribly guilty.

I guess thats a good thing.

Its hard doing what you think is right, especially if it means hurting someone you don't really care that much for.

Especially if that person is trying to....usurp.....my good student status!

I used the word usurp.

Good day yes.

Absolutely useless post.

In a House Made of Glass.

I need to be more environmentally conscious.

Today I washed my hair with Organix Pomegranate and Green Tea shampoo.

It smells lovely, and claimed to be all natural.

When I looked on the back label, however, there were so many chemical-sounding ingredients.

What gives, peeps?

Lately I haven't really had a taste for meat.

Today I opted for the vegetarian options my school has to offer.

I was quite pleased.

I never thought I would be craving tofu, but today was just one of those days.

We'll see how long this will last.

I'm just writing aimlessly right now.

I want to sleep quite badly, but my neighbors are being terribly loud.

Paperthin boundaries disguised as brick walls don't really do much to keep the affairs of rambunctious teen males and their girlfriends quiet.

but I guess I can't complain that much.

I listen to music pretty loudly in my room, and I don't doubt they can probably hear it.

Today was a good day, by the way.

I utilized the library AND the gym.

My heart is happy.

I'm ready to move on.

The spaceman that can't get high.

Whatever that means.

Manage Me. I'm a Mess.

Yet another unproductive day.

I think i'm starting to lose sight of what promises I made to myself at the beginning of 2010.

I don't want to be another one of those people that keep to their resolutions for a month.

This is for me.

1. Don't add random people on facebook anymore. If you don't know them in real life, or you don't need to know them, you definitely don't need them on your facebook. Even if its a cute guy. In real life, people usually don't look like what their profile picture looks like. Just like on "He's Just Not That Into You"; The Drew Barrymore character. Just think of her the next time you are thinking of adding a guy just because he knows how to take a profile picture.
2. Limit facebook usage to every other day. If some REALLY needs to talk to you, chances are they have your phone number.
3. Exercise more. Swimsuit season is coming. Not even to be shallow, your body doesn't need to be perfect. You've got nothing unless you've got your health.
4. Stop being useless. Laying in bed staring at the ceiling? Shouldn't happen anymore. There are always things to be done.
5. Don't buy something you see JUST because it's cute. You are in college. AKA- You are broke.
6. Take care of your skin and nails! This doesn't need to be one of your resolutions.... but you are an adult. Acne is for high schoolers. You left that behind when you left Olney.
7. Don't sell yourself short. Pretty self-explanatory.
8. Take time to do something you love everyday.
9. Do at least 3 hours of homework everyday.
10. Utilize TV guide. Channel flipping is bound to waste your time.

Strike All The Bells...

I need to make some lifestyle changes.

Suburban Living.

Thank goodness for Fridays.

Got to hang out with a good friend.

Funny, we weren't close in high school, we were just acquaintances.

We started talking at the beginning of this school year.

She doesn't even go to my college.

I'm thankful though.

She's amazing.

It makes me wonder what else I probably missed out on in high school.

..but what's done is done..

I got to see Alice in Wonderland!

It was a very nice film,

and considering it was opening day, it wasn't nearly as crowded as I expected it would be.

Movie theatres make me wonder though...

How is it that some people are able to use their regular speaking voices during a film?

Really? I just paid 10.50 to have you interrupt my movie.

Okay, it was a child.

But still.

I'm not going to mention fact that the child was speaking loudly (not in english) though.

Because that just makes me look bad.

After that we went to the mall.

I managed to get a pair of 7$ jeans!

and some hair extensions.

mmgirl you talkin bout muh weave?

The mall was a-swarmin with 13-15 year olds.

I forgot the mall was the hotspot for young teens on Friday nights.

Aww, how sweet.

At the mall without your parents for the first time.

Make them proud!

Or Not.

They just move in SWARMS.

What particularly bothered me was when I was trying to buy my hair extensions.

The cashier had a eyebrow ring.

That didn't bother me though.

This girl with a septum piercing kept flirting with him though.

She had to be all but 14 years old.

Ugh.

Keep it to yourself.

When i'm shopping and you get in my way, I get rude.

As rude as my 12 previous years in Catholic school will allow me to be.

Which isn't rude at all.

Found out Jack was at Towson a few hours ago.

Local boys.

I laugh.

Doppelganger

Today a man that looked exactly like Chris Carrabba sat next to me in the commons.

Tattoos and all.

He was even staring dreamily out with window.

And occasionally glanced at me.

But probably because I was catching glances at him first.

I tried to cover it up by pretending to look out the window.

You don't have to tell me.

I know i'm stealthy.

Everything Must Go.

Today was a better day.

I can't be mad at the people I like for more than a few hours.

The same person that inspired some angry bloggage is the same person that helped making today enjoyable.

Its the little things that matter.

I guess all I needed was a change of scenery.

Weird things make me happy.

People watching, for instance.

I sat in front of a huge window overlooking Academic Drive and just watched people walking by.

....Is that creepy?

;)

Is it creepy now?